It Has Been Awhile....

It has been awhile since I have sat down to write anything for that matter......Like I should be working on an essay right at this moment, but I am content with going and reading things I have not taken the time or effort to read.
This weekend I went to a retreat, I guess past weekend, and my Father God showed up and spoke to us loud and clear. He is that little nudge you feel when you are thinking about doing something, he is that voice that cries out to us when we need to hear him, and he is the warmth of loving caring caring arms when we need to cry or crawl into them and feel safe.
My heart is in the process of healing, healing from losing too many people in my life that I have loved dearly, healing from the wrongs that I have done and need to right, and healing because I have finally let my heavenly father in and letting him love me.
God has given me so many blessings and this weekend he made it very clear to me how truly blessed we are or I am. So, many women told of the man who has left them, or told how they were thinking of leaving their marriage because of some unhappiness that they just can't seem to get over.
In those stories I felt the hurt, heartache, shame, guilt, hate, love, etc. I felt for each woman's story. I see clearly how a marriage is meant to cherish. There are many times that I may not feel totally loved or accepted by my hubby, but there are many more times I do. I find if I focus on the bad, then everything turns ugly, but if I focus on the good, then everything seems somehow miracously beautiful. I am not saying relationships are simple, they are not, but what I am saying is "focus on the good to make things better, focusing on the bad makes things so much worse." My choice is on the good.
I have a good husband who loves me, and who has stood beside me through many a rough times, and I am pretty certain more will come, but I know in my heart that with my Gods help nothing will be able to destroy us, unless I give in and give permission to let the worst happen.
As for right now, I am happily married. Tuckered out from a long day of putting off writing an essay, and getting ready to start it this late, but I am content. I am happy and thankful, that God has seen fit to give me a man who is capable of fixing anything, including my broken heart, and blessing me with four of the best young women and gentleman that you will ever meet. God is not just good, he is great.
Thank You Lord for my Blessings today!
I am happily blessed with knowing that my husband and children know Jesus, and will live for him. Then when he calls each one of us home to heaven, we will always be together in the family of God, rejoicing and loving each other.
Now, to keep doing just that on this earth until he comes, or calls us home.
If you ever have the time, listen to some of Joyce Meyers TV shows, you can watch them also online. I just google her and pick and listen to her shows as I work at laundry or whatever back here. She is most inspiring.
Well, here I go to actually start my essay.
God Bless!